Your Bloom Isn't Broken
Work From Home
It was day 19 of Covid-19 #WFH (Work-From-Home) orders and March 31st when the bottom fell out from under me. I think I convinced myself that if I could just get to the end of March, it would all work itself out and I could make a little game of my time. My creative side came up with this beautiful bucket list of projects that I’d been putting off for some time. Garage..boxes…garage and more boxes. I felt motivated by keeping my mind and hands occupied.
Two things happened on March 31st, first, the realization hit me that #WFH wasn’t ending and I was in for at least another month. Secondly, I’d picked up this daily habit of checking in with the headlines far too frequently than I’m used to doing.
It was in the middle of the day and suddenly I was experiencing what I would describe as a tightness in my chest and the onset of a panic attack. With all of the hysteria at the time, I was definitely assessing any exposure I’d had in the previous days and doing a poor job of diagnosing myself. My mind went to every extreme possible and finally, I just realized that I needed to shut everything down and go to complete silence and darkness.
April 1st, 5 am wakeup time and time to assess the damage. “I am worthy”. “I am valued”. “My voice matters”. My morning rituals came through for me once again. I woke up like, “Dang it. You have a whole non-profit centered on self-care. Act like it”.
So, you may not have access to a whole mission and community that creates a safe space to say “I’m not OK”.
Does this resonate with you? It did for me. So, here are some areas to “fix”, when your flower has difficulty blooming.
- Check the energy (environment)
- Check your soil (soul)
- Check your leaves (nourishment)
- Check your light (external energy)
- Check your pot (body)
For now, I can’t say it has all worked out as I’d planned; #WFH turned into Furlough #StayAtHome and It’s likely a permanent transition. Garage only got 25% done, 4 boxes emptied, added three new businesses, and started six new projects. But guess what! “I am worthy”, “I am valued”, “My voice matters” and I couldn’t be any more grateful.